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I appear to have been tagged by Erinface. (also known as nicefinalbeam ). The rules are that for 8 days you have to post something that made you happy that day. Tag 8 people to do the same. Who knows if I'll actually do this consistently for 8 days? I don't usually post every day. But I came on here to post about something that made me happy anyway, so it works out for today.

I went to Swigart, the music hall today after acting class ended up being only 30 minutes because the professor had missed a flight back from New York and wasn't actually there. I had inspiration from all of Yip's piano arranging that he does (awkward grammar lolz) to make an arrangement of a song just to see if I could do it. I didn't expect it to be that great, but if I at least had the ability, maybe I could take this somewhere, ne?

My initial choice of song was Warm Whispers by Missy Higgins, because Lauren sent me that song and I recently bothered to actually listen to it and decided it was really pretty. However, I couldn't for the life of me find the starting note/chord after playing a few more songs. I guess I haven't listened to it enough yet to really have it in my relative pitch repertoire yet. Therefore, I randomly hit a few notes and realized they were actually the beginning phrase of The Truth Beneath the Rose by Within Temptation. So that became the new choice of song.

The process of finding the right chords and junk would probably have seemed tedious to some people, but I actually had a lot of fun with it. It took over an hour to get through the whole thing, and there are still a few rocky places and chords I really need to improve, but overall, I'm quite proud of myself. I want to arrange a bunch more songs now.

Also, speaking of being proud of myself, for those of you who I have not yet told...which I think is most people...I finally came out to my dad. I was especially nervous after he practically screamed at me when he found out I bought a women's coat. But he took it so much better than I thought he ever would. Basically he said "I see..." then asked if I'd had any boyfriends (I guess to confirm that I actually was really sure of what I was telling him), asked if I'd told my mom, and then told me to be careful. I'm really glad that I finally did it. I actually feel like my relationship with him is improving a lot lately. Now, my mom is a different story.

Also, I'm too lazy to tag people for the meme...if you wanna do it, go ahead~

IMDB keyword meme
1. Go to IMDB.com and look up a bunch of your favorite movies.
2. Post three or four official IMDB "Plot Keywords" for each.
3. You guys guess the movies.

No cheating!

1. Horse, death, planetary alignment - Hercules guessed by shiroi_majo
2. Infatuation, presumed dead, cannibalism - Sweeney Todd guessed by supertacular
3. Kidnapping, fish out of water, bus, explosion
4. Puppet Show, sea captain, hiding place, escape - The Sound of Music guessed by nicefinalbeam
5. Ancient sword, leaving home, birthday party, journey - The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring guessed by supertacular
6. Premature aging, hair color, dog, blob - Howl's Moving Castle guessed by nicefinalbeam
7. Teen angst, young love, voice, whimsical - The Little Mermaid guessed by jesterdoll45
8. Bittersweet, narcolepsy, prostitution, mistaken identity - Moulin Rouge guessed by shiroi_majo
9. Love, rose, spell, temper - Beauty and the Beast guessed by nicefinalbeam
10. Child abuse, runaway, sea, insect - James and the Giant Peach guessed by nicefinalbeam

Go!

For once, this isn't an emo post.  I know how annoying those get.  =P

I've been feeling happy.  Genuinely.  Even when I'm alone.  And then, of course, the fact that I'm feeling good only makes me happier.  It's a lovely spiral.  Things feel a little different lately...it's hard to explain how.  I almost feel like I'm gaining back that confidence I had started to get last year.  I dunno.  I'm still a slacker, I should totally have done waaaay more work this weekend, but whatever.  It might seem like I wasted an hour or so of my life tonight, but to me, the two minutes of pure joy I got out of it were worth it all.  Even if I still haven't seen Atonement.

I'm sorry for complaining so much.  I love everyone.

So I deleted my last post.  It makes me feel immature.  And whiny.  But hey, I actually AM both of those things, so maybe it's not such a big deal.

Ummm....I completely forgot what I was gonna post about.  Other than my anatomy exam worrying me greatly and my fear that I shall fail it.  Yeah, other than that.

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~Fin~ 

Whyyyyyyy does everything hate me right nowwwww?

For those who remain blissfully unaware, my iPod died over the weekend.  It froze, I reset it, and then it turned itself off and won't respond to anything now.  It was also quite warm afterwards, so I think it got fried.

And just today, taking Lauren home, I found out that it wasn't just my iPod...my iTrip has also completely died and now refuses to work.  I have a nagging suspicion that one of the two decided to take the other one down with it.

On top of all that, I get home and I'm already stressed because I have so much work to do, and my watch randomly snaps off and turns out to be irreparably broken. 

I think I may cry.

EDIT:  And wow!  Just to slather some icing on this cake of unfortunate circumstances, my closet door suddenly will not close all the way.  And God knows that's gonna bug the craaaaap out of me because I'm incredibly obsessive compulsive about these things.

Now I get to post one of my crazy dreams!

Dunno if any of this is significant.  It's kinda strange though.  Just kinda.

Step 1: Open up whatever MP3 program you use and add every song in your collection.
Step 2: Put it on random.
Step 3: Pick your favorite lines from the first 20 songs that play.
Step 4: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 5: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 6: DON'T GOOGLE THEM! 

 
Anyways, I felt a lot better yesterday after finding Ithaca and deciding to apply. I finally finished my applications to Harvard, Yale, and Juniata. Almost done Duquesne and Ithaca. Oberlin still wants an essay... T_T How lame is that?

Today was a really crappy day...it seemed like everything was going wrong and I kept getting emo. But I'm not in a bad mood right now. Mysterious how these things work, no?

I just woke up from this reeeeally strange dream.  I don't remember that much, but I'll try to piece together what I can.  I'd probably remember more if my mom hadn't just wandered in and lectured me for five hours about how I need to get on the ball with my college searching.

Anywho, so I'm pretty sure it started out with me playing some video game with my cousin.  I was at his house and all, and it was a really fun, but really familiar-seeming game. And we totally beat it. The game actually made up about two thirds of the dream, it was just THAT exciting.  And then suddenly I had to leave again, so I was packing up my suitcase, when suddenly my pants started flying around the room and trying to kill me.  I'm pretty sure they started suffocating me and I blacked out.

When I woke up (still in the dream), I was now on a choir trip.  To Philadelphia or Nashville, I think, I can't remember which.  It must have been the point when we were still driving to wherever we had to go, because we were all in some weird fast food joint.  We were all eating whatever food we had gotten, except I hadn't gotten any because I felt really sick.  Miss Wood, naturally, completely ignored that.  After a while of sitting there, my stomach settled and I decided to go get myself some food.  I met up with this little 9-year-old kid who was on the trip with us at the counter.  He was trying to get more ice cream but they weren't paying any attention to him, so I felt bad and decided to help him.  I walked him over to the open register and asked the lady for ice cream.  And she got it, etc.  But then the kid started whining about stuff and just kept ordering more stuff and the lady at the counter (who was this weird Asian old lady) kept bringing him things that were a bajillion times more expensive than what he'd asked for and making me pay for all of it.  Of course, after so long, I ran out of money, and I was getting rather annoyed, but she had already brought him this $6 bottle of water.  So I'm trying to figure out how the heck I'm going to pay for it while trying to get Miss Wood's attention (because apparently she was in charge of the kid)

In the process of my fumbling around for money somewhere in my pockets, I accidentally puled out my choir folder (out off my pocket.....O_o) and it fell to the floor.  The lady saw it and got really excited and said that I could pay with the music in the folder if I wanted to.  So I pulled out a $5 piece of music and a $2 one and gave them to her.  Instead of giving me the food, though, she just grabbed the music and stood there playing a piano that was behind the counter for whatever reason, and I suddenly realized that the $5 piece of music I'd given her was Tantum Ergo, apparently my favorite song ever.  So I kept shuffling through my songs for another $5 to trade her for it back.  Except everytime I found one, my mom appeared and said things like "Don't you need that song?" or "I like when you play that one on the piano, don't sell it."  Plus, all the rest of the music was really thick and worth $14, and the Asian lady said she'd only take another $5 piece.  And it was in the middle of this VERY important decision that I woke up.

You know it was an interesting dream.

ALSO OF VERY MUCH IMPORTANCE.  I woke up today with my arm under my pillow, and I'm fairly certain I hadn't been laying on it.  Anyways, it was literally COMPLETELY numb.  I've never had a body part go completely numb except my lip, which just isn't the same.  It was quite frightening to KNOW your arm was there, to see it, to feel it, and yet not be able to make it move at all.  I was just flopping it around on my bed with my other arm thinking about how freaky it was until it started to wake up.

In the realm of reality!  I had my Beauty and the Beast auditions, though I shall refrain from saying how they went on here for fear of looking retarded when I get my results.  Here's to becoming Dancing Teacup B!~

Especially if it means getting smushed by a foot...

Anyways, I think there's kind of a lot I wanna post about right now....but at the moment, I can't think of anything at all....

I'm getting really really fidgety at the moment what with everyone finishing the 7th HP book and talking about it....I decided to read 5 and 6 again before starting it, and I've just finished 5, so I obviously haven't read 7 yet, but every single time someone mentions it, I'm sooo tempted to start reading it and forget all about my plan.  If I wasn't such a perfectionist I could probably throw caution to the winds and read it, but for some reason the prospect of not sticking to my initial plan freaks me out.  Plus I remember virtually nothing of what happened in 6...  But all that's my fault, so ignore me.

Ummm, so I looked at three more colleges recently.  I went to Oberlin in Ohio, which was a nice college, with a really, really great Conservatory (150 practice rooms and 200 Steinway (the bestest) pianos...that's more than are in the Steinway factory itself!).  Unfortunately, they didn't seem to do much in the way of musicals, and I'd really like to get some experience being in some during college, seeing as how our school never does any.  Then I went and visited Harvard and Yale.  I honestly expected them to have kind of rigid, stuck-up sort of atmospheres where you feel constantly pressured to compete grade-wise with everyone else, but that wasn't the case at all.  Harvard especially actually reminded me a LOT of Juniata, which I really liked.  Yale didn't have the same feel, but it was also really great, and I dunno which I'd pick if both accepted me.  But that's not likely, seeing as they each have 9% acceptance rates and I fail at life.

Hmmm, what else?

Oh, right, I'm going on YET ANOTHER trip tomorrow afternoon.  I'm heading to Ocean City with my cousin, and I'll be gone all next week until Sunday night.

I'm also rather miffed that our lovely school can't be bothered to get our schedules to us by this point in time.  I really need to know which classes I actually have to get the summer work done for, so it'd be helpful if they'd hurry their slow butts up.  Guess I can't expect too much of OUR school system though...

LASTLY (*insert cheering here*), I went and re-tested for my driver's license and passed!  Yay me!

I guess that's all for now....enough of my babbling and whining about everything

So, I don't really have the time to/feel like making a post right now, but I feel bad for not having posted anything in ages.

I just got back from visiting my cousin in Maryland today, and I'll be leaving once again on Wednesday for college visits (6 straight days of them  T___T).  Sigh.....at least I'm actually interested in these ones and they're not random ones my mom thought I'd like but I actually hated.  I'll be going to Oberlin in Ohio first and then I'm heading up to Harvard and Yale.  Yeah, I know I'll never get into those two, but I'd sure as heck like to try.

So...um...I guess LJ would probably be a good place to get down everything that's been going through my head lately, but 1:  it'd be waaay too confusing and jumbled to make it coherent....and 2:  there're still a few people who aren't quite aware of my...erm...situation.  Yeah...hopefully I'll work up the courage to change that soon enough...

I really do have a lot going around in circles in my head, and I'm trying to figure a lot out, but nothing's working.  I can't figure out how I feel about certain people, about  myself, about the future......there's just too much going on for me to really organize at  1:45 in the morning.

Maybe I'll make an attempt at a post on all this tomorrow...if I get time.....or it might have to wait till I get back next week.  Right now....I'm going to bed....before I die.

Oh right, I almost forgot, I had my third musical theatre experience when I saw Grease at a dinner theatre.  And it was quite good.  Our Sandy wasn't the greatest, but we had a really great Rizzo and Danny.... (even though Danny made me very sad for reasons only a few of you will know at the moment...)

Anyways...I'm gonna go collapse now.....yup.

So I just got back from the National Student Leadership Conference Inside the Arts Program (wooo!  official title~)

I'm probably gonna end up getting a facebook because everyone there demanded that I have one.

Anyways, so I totally went into this whole thing with a really negative attitude. I didn't think I was gonna make any friends at all, and I just wanted to get the 10 days over with. That was DEFINITELY not my train of thought after just the first day.

I got to LaGuardia and had just picked up my bags when I met a girl headed to NSLC too.  So we got lost together.  AND I LOVE LYNSEY SOOOO MUCH NOW!!!!!

And then I gradually met Ally and Devinn and a bunch of other really great people, and I actually started coming out of my shell. And then I met Danny through Lynsey and through him about 30 other people. Time to list them!~:  Olivia, Andrea, Yelena, Angela, Andrew, Ashley, Katie, Justine, and so many more!  It was so much fun having an open atmosphere with no restraints to keep me from being myself, and then realizing just how many friends I made that way and how many people loved me.

And my TA (Team Advisor) Matt was AWESOME.  Plain and simple.  I was in the head TA group (cause we're the bestest) and we had so much fun and bonded so well.  We all really felt like we could share anything with each other, and no one was going to reject us.  It was such a great feeling and it really gave me a realization of who I truly am and that I actually have things to be happy about and proud of.  And Matt himself is just one of the nicest and most supportive people I think I've ever met.  It was really a great experience for me.

Besides all of that, I also realized just how much I really do love the arts.  I've specifically unearthed an incredible passion for musical theater.  Which is weird, since I've never acted.  Until this week, that is.  We did an acting exercise thing, and Matt and Eli, who are already actors, said they thought I had real talent!  So yeah, I guess another career opportunity just opened up there  ^_^

Basically I had a lot of fun, and I'm sooo glad I did it, and I would go again in a heart beat.

P.S.  At some point you all are gonna have to learn about scooping, crab faces, boo laughs, and koala sounds.......you'll see what I mean eventually.

So, I guess I should probably actually post...since it's been quite a while since I've done so.  But too bad, I really don't have time (even though I'll probably be up a while longer.  Anyways..

THIS POST IS A REMINDER......SORT OF.....

I'm heading off for my New York trip tomorrow~  Increeeeeedibly nervous right now...since I've never been on a TEN DAY TRIP without my parents and not knowing anyone who would be there.  Also hoping my roommate won't be randomly openly gay or something...that might cause problems.  And hoping I don't get lost forever at La Guardia airport.

Then again, I'm excited too...I mean, I'm gonna be visiting the Lincoln Center for the Performing Arts....Emprie State Building..Metropolitan Museum of Art...Times Square....PHANTOM ON BROADWAY....okay....anyways

I REALLLLY can't resist, so I'm doing the music meme.

Yet another day where I've woken up far earlier than usual.  Don't disregard these ill omens, people!

Besides that, I'm tooooootally excited right now.  I suppose I'll formulate a list so I don't go off and ramble and confuse the crap out of all you guys.

1.  Okay, so for a little while now I've been mentioning how I'll be gone on a two week trip, but I haven't really given details.  So I guess this warrants some sort of explanation.  It's for this National Leadership Conference thing I got nominated for, and they gave you a bunch of choices of different programs to choose from, so I selected the program about the arts.  It's held in New York, and I think we're going to be staying at Fordham University.  Anyway, it's meant to explore the various arts, so we'll be looking at art, music, writing, architecture, theater, and possibly a bit more.  Obviously, the trip's exciting enough in itself.  But not too long ago, we got a little more information on the specific activities, and I'm going to get to go to Phantom of the Opera on Broadway!  So I've been pretty psyched about that.

2.  On Sunday, I found out that my church choir, next year, may possibly be going off to Rome!  Yeah, it'll probably be a majorly Catholic trip, but I mean, how many chances am I really gonna get to go to Rome?  Plus, we're actually going to get to sing at St. Peter's Cathedral there, which, while it may not be that important to a non-Catholic, anyone who knows the religion at all can tell you this church is the absolute center, the biggest church sort of thing.  So that'd be pretty amazing.  None of that's set in stone yet, but I'm hoping.

3.  And if all goes well, I'll be visiting Europe not once, but TWICE next summer.  I just went to the choir meeting about our Europe trip, and it sounded like it's going to be pretty darn awesome.  We get to visit Italy and Austria, and we get to sing in each place.  And it just sounded like a really great trip where we'll get to see plenty of sights.  I really feel like ending this post soon, so I'll skip the details for now, I guess.  Besides, not like you really need to know any more, right?

4.  And lastly, for those who have not yet heard, even though Lauren posted about it and everyone's been telling everyone, our Chamber Choir actually got selected as National Champions of all the Music Festivals.  Yeah.  Pretty incomprehensible and amazing and exciting all at once.

5.  Oh, right, almost forgot.  CRMBLZ beat LILJIM, WEEEMS beat POSHAG, and GAY almost defeated NOTGAY (damn you, Costa Rica!)

I have also started playing Kingdom Hearts again (And by start I mean almost beaten it in just three days).  So be prepared for obsessiveness, especially revolving around a certain character who shall remain unnamed while sitting innocently in the majority of my userpics.

Alright, I was thinking about talking about colleges a bit, but no one really wants to hear my incoherent and illogical drivel on that subject matter at the end of an already-too-long post.